Self-Revelation: Healing & Salvation

Yesterday afternoon we went down to the lake for a chill-out and a lie-down. Michael layed down in the sun to get a prep tan, I layed down in the shade as I’ve gotten enough sun(burn) for the season. As I lay there looking up at the swarm of dragonflies circling around up at the tree line, I thought that if I hadn’t been lying down and looking up, I probably wouldn’t have seen them, dozens of them, just a few feet above where we normally ‘look’. I told Michael later that I’ve never seen so many dragonflies in one place before, and he said, where? Looking about him at eye level.

While I was cruising the sky on my back a thought that has been niggling at me returns, that of my relationship to my healing work, both in my own healing and for others. Even though I know without doubt (so far) that making art is my vocation and healing its theme, lately a detail emerges to tell me that the way of its manifestation is not as I had always expected. I had assumed, along with many others, that once I find healing for myself, I have an obligation to help others heal. So I get the training I needed, put in the practice and gather the experience, do my own innerwork to clear the path, and open my arms wide to anyone who asks for healing. Yet something in all of this never settled comfortably into its groove, something keeps tripping my own lie detector.

It is only a few weeks ago that I finally heeded the ‘alarm’ and dared to check the reading. It said, I do not want to be a healer to other people. I want to help/heal the rest of Creation, and I will continue to heal myself so that I can do this work. But I am not interested in administering healing to other human beings directly, as a practitioner or channel or shaman or doctor. This, though a bit of a shock to my ego, feels right to me.

A few more days or weeks went by before I could follow this ‘self-revelation’, this powerful and clear ‘I DO NOT WANT’ feeling. But one day it was there, the I DO WANT counterpart. I want to teach people how to heal themselves, how to find and draw on their own resources, within and out, how to assess and diagnose symptoms, how to speak and have dialogues with their bodies, how to check for truth and lies, and how to keep the Big Picture always in sight so you always have a reference point, never lost for long, and never lose hope even in times when that’s all you’ve got. I WANT TO DO THIS and I have no doubt that I can do this.

So I take comfort in the adage: “Give a man a fish; you have fed him for today. Teach a man to fish; and you have fed him for a lifetime.”

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UNHOLY INTERFERENCE

If I’m being honest
I would say this outloud,
that I don’t want to be a healer for what ails other people,
not because there are already countless number of healers
who have taken on this vocation,
not because I am trying to be different,
though those are the kind of reasons my mind would automatically come up with,
but because the truth is
I do not feel the human species ought to be ‘saved’.

Our greatest impact on this planet has been to kill and destroy
To soil our own nest as well as every other species’
And as most of us who are privileged enough to know
This planet cannot support the number of us that are already born
And continues to be born
The birth rate still outpaces the death rate.

How is it that we can hold on one side of the scale
the fact of our rampant overpopulation
Not to mention our encroachment on the lives of other species –
Usually annihilation or extinction,
While on the other side of the scale
Without thought, without discernment, without connecting
to the wisdom of the big picture,
we run out onto the streets
with our hearts on our sleeves
our shadow selves shoved deeply into the recesses of our souls
and declare our good intention to
‘End world hunger!’
‘Fight breast cancer!’
and ‘Zero Tolerance’ to this and that?

All of us (humans) look upon an infestation of rodents
Or insects or weeds as a nuisance
That ought to be eradicated
By any means available,
How is it that we never look at the (over)infestation
Of humanbeings in the same light?
Are we singled out for salvation?
Is a human life worth more than a flower, a bug, a rodent’s?
ARE WE SUPERIOR BEINGS, TO ALL ELSE, IN THIS WORLD??

I guess the answer must be yes,
As I have seen nor heard evidence otherwise.
I see though, the only way for this planet to survive
As in, to continue to support Life
Is if the majority of the human population dies out
(how that’s possible given how attached we are
to our fear of death, I don’t know,
we should all be out there with signs that say,
‘End Death!’, ‘Annihilate End to Life!’, ‘We Will Never Die!’)
and the earth is given a respite to fallow
to catch its breath
and heal the big, gaping wounds on its body,
to cleanse, detox, renew, and regenerate, and
GIVE ALL THE OTHER SPECIES A CHANCE!
For a change.

We, human beings –
Domain Eukarya
Kingdom: Animalia
Phylum: Chordata
Subphylum: Vertebrata
Class: Mammalia
Subclass: Theria
Infraclass: Eutheria
Order: Primates
Suborder: Anthropoidea
Superfamily: Hominoidea
Family: Hominidae
Genus: Homo
Species: sapiens –
Cannot save the planet
Cannot save Creation
Cannot save anyone
Except ourselves, just as
Each one of us
Cannot save anyone else
Except our own self.

Go home, go inside,
Lock the door,
Heal our Self
And save the world.